I can't do anything right lately. I make everyone mad and I'm crying a lot.
Right now, I want to push everyone away from me. I dont know what's going on.
Can a 31.8333 year old still have hormone issues?

I've been talking/yelling/crying at God a lot. He listens right? Today was one of the days when I hit the wall. So bad even that I couldn't take the stress and had to leave my office and drive away. I broke down the second I closed my car door.

I calmed down (thank you Starbucks) enough to return to the office.
Later in the day I heard this song (I stream KLOVE in my office) and it helped a little.

I bolded the lines that fit perfectly in my heart and tears.



Francesca Battistelli – Free to Be Me

At twenty years of age I'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see

(Chorus)

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

When I was just a girl I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and I'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt

(Chorus)

And you’re free to be you

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I've got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though

(Chorus)


I hear that God brings these hurdles for a reason and that at the end of the struggle, I will be stronger and have clarity or understanding. I can't wait for this to be over. This year started out rough, 3 months into it, I'd like it all to be done already.